A sideliner.  On the outside of the window watching.  Enviously.  Unable to fit in.  Unfit. Unwanted.  Rejected.  Left out.  Uninvited.  It’s all about perspective.  Leave the emptiness within and enter into any situation with the fullness of God because it’s too exhausting to live feeling uninvited.  Bring the exact thing that I am longing for with me. Acceptance.  Live with an inviting spirit.  A welcoming smile.  The fullness God.  

Always welcome.

Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.  James 4:8


Not Who Am I? But Whose Am I?

Oh, the depths of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God!  How unsearchable His judgments and His paths beyond tracing out!  Romans 11:33

An identity crisis hits.  Wife.  Mother.  Daughter.  Sister.  Friend.  Photographer. Gardener.  Cook.  Critic.  Neighbor.  Judge and jury.  Who am I?  A resounding, “You are My beloved.”  And that is enough. 


Struggling, With All His Energy

To this end.  Maturity.  I labor.  Hard work.  Struggling.  Wrestling.  Warfare.  With all His energy.  His Omnipotence, not my strength.  Which so powerfully.  Dunamis.  Dynamic power.  Works in me.  In me.  Through me.  Around me.  For my good.  For His glory.  

To this end I labor, struggling with all His energy, which so powerfully works in me. Colossians 1:29



God calls His people to be separate to Him and for Him.  Holy.  Set apart.  Being separate. Hard.  Lonely.  Ultimately good.  Training and equipping.  Comfort is not His ultimate goal.  He has a better plan.  The best plan.  Control.  It’s all in His hands.  For His glory. Suffering.  Discontent.  Something is wrong.  Only He can make it right.  Tenderly. Sweetly.  Beautifully.  


Gratitude for the Gift-giver not the gift.  Gratitude for the Creator not the created. Gratitude for the Source of all joy, peace, hope, love.  Envisioning the lavishness rained down in a continuous flood.  Grace poured into this broken vessel of clay.  How can any there be any response aside from kindness?  Oh, but for grace to love You more!

In the End

I know that my Redeemer lives and that in the end He will stand on the earth.  After my skin has been destroyed, yet in my flesh I will see God.  Job 19:25-26

Redeemer.  Advocate.  Champion.  In the now.  No circumstance.  No heartache.  No devastation.  Nothing can change Truth.  He lifts the weary one’s head and places it in His lap.  He fills the hungry one’s belly and soul.  He heals the broken one’s body.  He steers the lost one’s way.   He seeks the stray sheep, opens the eyes of the blind, makes the lame to walk and raises the dead.  Yet, if He did nothing else but save me, I would be utterly, hopelessly, helplessly in love with Him.

God’s Handiwork

Poiema.  Handiwork.  Workmanship.  His work of art.  Created in Christ Jesus.  A new life made from His.  The old has gone the way of the trash heap.  Cloaked in the new.  To do good works.  Commit all to the Lord.  Whatever is to be done.  Commit.  To cast all cares to Him.  Allow Him to determine the path.  Set the course.  Stay the course.  For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you.  Prosper.  Peace.  Shalom.  

Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.  You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.  I will be found by you, and I will bring you back from captivity.   God   (Jeremiah 29:12-14)